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Remember Your Name

July 31st, 2010

And say it proudly. Those of you who have attended my seminars know I feel that the way we say our names conveys our self-confidence. “When you introduce yourself, state your name as if you were proud of it,” I counsel.

A while back, I was conducting a seminar for the Georgia Leadership Institute at Lake Lanier Islands and one of the participants told me this story:

“I grew up with a father who was both abusive and an alcoholic. As awful as he was at times, he gave me a gift that I have carried through my life. Whenever I would leave the house – to take a test, play in a competitive sport, or act in a play – he would say to me, ‘Erica, remember your name.’ When I remember this, I stand a little taller and walk a little slower.”

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Feeling the Anger

July 23rd, 2010

Finding forgiveness. Recently, I ended a three-year relationship. I was proud of myself—I was proud of us; we ended it with respect and dignity, with much love and grace.

So much for love and grace; I am now angry.

Is my anger justified? Probably not. But I am still angry. I try to be gentle with myself. Isn’t anger one of the stages of grieving?

The Aramaic word for “forgive” is to “untie.” I want to untie and move on. Or do I? In truth I want to wallow for a while in my emotions. There’s something empowering about righteous indignation, yet I feel pretty out of control right now.

I know I’ve created a “story” around what happened. I also know my story is mostly false. That doesn’t change things; I am still angry.

I want to forgive. I don’t like the person I’ve become. I want to get to the place where I wish my ex-partner all the good things I want in my own life. I’m not there yet. Still, there are glimpses of hope. Sometimes I find compassion; I send my ex-partner a blessing.

Patience, trust, and surrender. It’s been said that time heals all things. I know that in time I will find the love I feel for him, but not now. For now, I am angry.

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